The Cost of Waiting

Do u know what it feels to wait for something that never happens in the end? That's y my blog is titled that way...I am a person who likes to make people happy, likes to fulfill my promise and more than willing to do just anything...but is it too much to ask for something small in return...I just don't understand y people can give so much excuses to the point that they can really hurt people that are close to them...I can understand excuses where a person has got to do what a person's got to do...but I don't understand that sometimes just a simple small deed can't be accomplished because of too many tasks...where there's a will, there's DEFINITELY A WAY....doesn't it...I just detest waiting coz it consumes too much of my emotion...I used to wait a lot but it all concluded with happy endings, with promises kept...but as time passes, things change...but this same old me is still the same me...always hoping, always waiting, always full of love, devotion and faith...yet, i am now waiting for something with no return...

I'm not a pompuous, swollen with pride and conceited type of person...in fact I guess I'm a humble and modest kind of person despite all the worldly belongings, my versatility and ability...and I guess only certain selected few that have the privilege of acquiring my unending and torrential love...and YET, some seldom grasp and recognize the value of the advantage and the honor...maybe they forget to ponder that and always think that things will always work that way...as for me, all I want is for them to know how to treat and nurture my heart by just doing very undemanding and effortless action...is it too difficult???

In reality, this me myself and I, really realize that I am in a secondary position when in comes to ***** no matter what I do, no matter what I sacrifice for, no matter how hard I try, I will always fall second and never will I become a priority...y? Bcoz I choose that kind of life though it wasn't me who initiated it and thus, I have to bow to it and just endure...notwithstanding that, I still will be me...I will still do everything I can even if the treatment that I received is unequivalent...

This me has a lot of responsibilities on my shoulder and yet still very precise and conscientious about my "extra" responsibilities...my only hope...I will be loved, appreciated and valued FOREVER!!!