Of Birthdays N Anniversaries...

A new day has just shown its face minutes ago...and what day is it today? 12 Aug...the day that I looked forward every year eversince ... ??? And yet again this 12 Aug has disappointed me in every way...I guess I just have to wait for another 365 days...maybe next 12 Aug would be different...would be to my liking...

All I want is just a small fraction of his time to cherish together during this meaningful day, especially if it's of a certain number...40 that is...I know to him, birthday celebrations are meaningless, but not to me...birthdays and anniversaries are the days I look forward to every year...it's the time of joy and delight...especially of my dear ones'...but today or yesterday to be exact, I failed again...I failed to fulfil my valued wishes, again...of course I have to realise who I am in reality and that I should give way to the most "deserving"...who am I to dispute...I just wonder, when? Or perhaps, never...after all, I always get the second best don't I...

With me, it's always "no"...
With me , it's always "cannot"...
With me, it's always "I try"...
With me, it's always "maybe"...
With me, it's always "I don't know"...

But for you, it's always "yes"...
For you, it's always "can"...
For you, it's always "I will"...
For you, it's always "of course"...
For you, it's always "sure"...

D, my LI...I can feel that things have changed a lot with u...I longed for the time then when everything was on our side, when happiness was within our strong grasp...when fun was the game...when hardship and destitution were not in our dictionary...when reality was parallel to fantasy...

Now I feel deprived of love, care, tenderness, gentle and thoughtful words and emphatic whispers...that's all I ask for, can u give it to me D, can u?

D, my LI, wishing u a wonderful and elated birthday...may u be prosperous all your life...I'll always be there for you no matter what...